Done To Soon

I know that I mentioned in my last post that I'd be getting some more on here soon. It's with a heavy heart that I put this one together.

My grandfather passed away earlier today.

He wasn't supposed to last as long as this, because he had already had a heart attack before, and had a pacemaker too. He had a variety of things against him, like diabetes(that I know he cheated about), sleep apnea, and probably other things I wasn't even aware of.

For some reason, the fact that he had lasted a lot longer than diagnosed made me have a feeling like he'd be around forever.

My father was there with his father when it happened, and my family seems to be doing well with things so far. The problem with my family is we tend to suppress, and I hope we can get through this in a more healthy fashion.

My grandfather was of the old school, and he was always wonderful to me. He was supremely generous, and always showed his love for me. I have many happy childhood memories with him. Many more memories of how he supported me while I was growing up, and even now that I'm older. I will miss him very much.

I am very glad that I was able to write him a long letter recently that recalled memories of us together, and let him know the ways I love and care about him. There is always a tendency to feel guilty about not spending more time, or telling someone you loved them enough. The truth is you can never tell them that enough, but I feel better knowing I told him fully, and it touched him.

I did reflect today on the dichotomy, and the fact that my wife was at a baby shower. Life does travel forward, and death is only a part of it. A very small part. I know I may not get over this for a while, but I do know that I would prefer to celebrate the rest of his life, instead of focusing on the end of it.

At the risk of sounding morbid, hug someone in your family today, and tell them you love them...